Teen Suffering Depression

[Rickeo]

Just wanted to post to see what your opinions are on this or if you have any suggestions for me.

I have been a Christian for 3 years now and was baptised last year and I trust and love Jesus with all my heart.

The problem is over the past 2 years I have suffered with depression really badly, I think it started when my uncle Died xmas eve 2004 and this is when things seemed to get really bad.

I weant through self harm and really hurting myself and this got really serious but through the love of Christ Jesus I was able to stop myself and have been free of self harm for the past 6 months but the depression hasn't got any better.

I love Jesus and I pray and believe I can be healed but as of yet I have not fully been healed. I pray that it will come in due course but hope can fade sometimes.

I am most of the time a happy person but from time to time for no apparent reason I get really really depressed and hate myself and just hate my life.

In these times I try and think about God and how much he loves me but I can't. Doctors say the unexpected swings of depression that I expireance for no apparent reason is caused by chemical inbalances in my brain, I don't know why they are caused but I just want them to go.

I didn't post this for sympathy I just didn't want to keep it to myself anymore I find it hard to talk to people in real life.

I feel so alone and bad. I feel bad 'coz am a Christian and I feel like its not right that I go through depression and being a Teen I feel like all adults especially Christian ones look down on me I just feel so alone inside.

Just wanted to share

God Bless

Rick

 

[Dreamer]

Rick---I surely don't have the answers you need, but I do feel compassion for you.

I don't like depression, and I don't choose it, but it seems to choose me. My mom and dad both suffered from depression and other mental illnesses more severe than that, so I guess I feel fortunate that I just get depressed once in awhile.

I have no doubt that you love the Lord Jesus with all your heart. I will be praying for you, Rick.

 

[Angelwave]

an acompanying voice!!

aww!all i can say is i hope it gets better!its great you managed to stop the self harm but you sound like the depression is geting in the way!
it could be something to with your uncle dieing because i no i had problems when my dad died i had a few problems!i supose i was luky though because i was only 3 so i didnt fully understand!but apparently once it had cliked in... a few months later i think....i stopped eating...people had to force food down me otherwise i refused,unfortunately the time i started not eating was just as i was starting school so it was hard for my mum to get me to eat whilst i was there!thankfully i am fine now and if someone has qestions to ask about him i can answer and not be upset...its nice to be able to think he is in a place much better than this,with the best protection anyone can have!lifes hard but we always have friends...even when we dont know it!hope does fade sometimes and all you can do is accept it!its never nice when you feel no-one can help!wich is why its gr8 we have site like this where there are so many people that can and will try as hard as they can to help!
i went through a stage where with close friends and family i was amazingly happy and always the one to bring everyone elses bad mood into a good one but then around others i would be extremely quiet and moody i would also try to make my self invisible...i didnt want anyone to see or talk to me...even if they were goin to be nice to me!i just wanted to be alone or at least feel like it!now i am very different and will do anything to make new friends...i want to ne noticed and i am back to tryin to make others happy....sometimes it doesnt work and actualy goes teribly wrong...but i make a joke of it and show them how much of an idiot i am making myself wich lifts their mood as they cant help but laugh!
i know exactly what you mean when you try to think about god but it just doesnt work...it happens to me!i think its a thing that happens 2 us when we come out of being one person to trying to be another for better for example being a non believer to becoming christian!
i can tell you didnt post it for sympathy there is way too much hidden emotion for it to be for that and you just want some help!
i often feel like im alone in the christian world because everyone seems like they are so close to perfection and i seem so far away...im sure you feel the same!i also often feel that no matter how hard i try to fit in the christian adults are always looking down on me thinking that im not good enough to be christian or that im bein stupid!im sure they dont really think this but sometimes its just the way i feel! i just want to tell you that you are not alone and although my case is nowhere near as bad as yours i still understand what you are feeling!you will never be alone!you must always tell yourself this because its so true and everyone deserves to know...especialy you!
its a very good thig you shared this!
god bless i will pray for you!
luv angelwave:girl_hug:

 

[stephen]

Hello Rickeo

Thankyou for sharing that with us. I will pray for you.

It would be wrong for me to say that I had never been depressed, I have, but nothing very serious. Living for Jesus can be stressful, being involved in Church work can be frustrating.

I find that Christian music uplifts me. Thinking about His promises to bless, and deliver also help. Here is a biblical word for you for today.....and everyday

Lord your word says that many are the afflictions of the righteous, but you deliver us from them all. Lord I thank you that I am the righteosness of God in Christ and therefore I am delivered from afflictions.

I thank you that no weapon formed against me will prosper and that every tongue that rises up against me will be condemned, it is my heritage.

You always cause me to triumph in Christ Jesus, and make me more than a conqueror in Christ Jesus, because greater is he that is in me than he that is in the world. God is with me so who can be against me.

Your word will not return unto you void but will accomplish what you please and prosper whereunto you sent it. Your word is accomplishing what you please in me now and it is prospering in me.

Thank you Jesus.

 

[Chad]

Brother Rickeo,

This is a simple list of what you can do, of course "prayer" being the obvious given.

: Pray, pray pray! Prayer is a simple conversation with GOD
: Read the Word, mediate on it. Remember, it is LIVING Word
: Worship Music certainly helps. Give it a shot, find new tunes and turn them on
: Trace (if you can) where/when the depression starts and once you recognize the cause, refreain from these things/environements.

God bless you brother

 

[-x-carol-x-]

i no u sed u dnt want sympathy but i cant help this if it sees like its sypathetic plz trust me i dnt mean 4 it 2 be ok ?
firstly i will pray for you .
i think what you shoud do is read the bible (i no u heard it before ,but its true )also maybe you could talk to a fellow christian that u trust. i couldnt imagine the pain and suffering you are going through but try and ocupy your self with somthing else like reading or being creative (its what i do wen i get hurt and wanna hurt somome or myself )draw somthing ,write a song ,do anything except hurt your self because (i dnt wanna seem cold but its true what im about to say )if u realli hurt urself then you could accidently kill your self and thats not good .i know its gonna be hard but just trust god he WILL HELP YOU
XxXx keep safe GOD bless xxxxxxxxxx carol

 

[Rickeo]

Thank you everyone,

You have all been such a blessing to me reading your replies am going through a really tough time at the minute and am feeling really down. But coming on here is helping me and knowing my brothers and sisters in Christ are here for me.

Thank you all you have been such a blessing.

God Bless

Rick

 

[Angelwave]

your welcome!and its so nice to hear weve helped...wel to me its is and im sure everyone else feels the same!i really do hope its helping you i mean since ive been on here i been generaly happier and full of energy to go about my day with!its amazingi really do hope that we are helping as no1 likes to see someone upset and we...well i if no1 else does...will try to make you happier because your such a great person!
god bless!
i will be praying for you!
lozy xx

 

[Jehovah Jireh]

Rickeo

You have Jesus, he is greater than any depression, and he has given you power over it, You are an overcomer in Christ Jesus.

Jesus paid for the price for your spiritual healing and physical healing on the cross. I believe thats when Jesus asked the Father to take away the cup from him, and sweated blood. (spiritual healing) and By his stripes you are healed.

Hes already done it on the cross, theres no more he can do, believe and recieve, and then Speak it out verbally to the enemy that you are telling that depression to go in the name of Jesus Christ, and it will lift, he may come back for more but as soon you feel like hes attacking you again, draw you spiritual sword and command the evil one to leave.

you see when we speak out loud in authority, we are exercising faith, and the powers of darkness has to flee, we break that spiritual stronghold by faith in Jesus.

Brother your in my prayers,

Godbless you, remmember you already have the victory!

 

[anthony]

Hello Dear,

As i read you post that i find that you love you Ubcle so much I think you saw the the dead of you uncle in front of your eyes.

So you feel so depress. I request you that please don't stop praying keep continue the praying. Bible say that every one of human should have to die.

So please pray and ready Bible. Jesus will make stronger.

Anthony.

 

[uknowme]

hey rick....
well to be honest i dont know what to say!!first of all i want you to know that im sorry you have to go through this!!im not saying this just to be saying it!!i really mean it...and i know how it is to feel how you feel and all that!!cause i have been there to...or lets say i am there too!!
i mean i did self-harm for like 2years or so...went to a therapy...and yeah that did kinda help...BUT it didnt help me get away from my depressions i still have sometimes....and i mean i dont like it!!
One thing i really think is great of you...is that you still try to thinkof god and how he loves you and everything!!!that one thing i stoped trying!!and to be honest i think thats one of the reasons i feel so far away from him!!cause like you said...being a christian it feels so wrong having to go through this!!!
but i believe that with gods help you will make it through it!!just one thing you shouldnt forget...or try not forget...is that god is by your side no matter what!!

kara

 

[MaxSeven]

HI Rickeo..
thank you for sharing, it certainly took courage for you to do that and I commend you for that.

Your feeling of being alone is a real feeling but based on a lie from our enemy. You are certainly not alone as God will never leave you or forsake you and you also have brothers and sisters in Christ who will be more that glad to help you through difficult times.

I find some of the Psalms written by King David to be very helpful. He certainly went through some difficult times....read psalm 61 when you are you feel like you are going down that path.

God is faithful and will see you through in difficult times.

 

[QuietProtest4t]

I've been there

Hi I've dealed with depression a long time myself. And now i've been healed . But now I find myself worried somedays and I blame myself because i'm supposed to be free. I think i've had to let go metally I think sometimes because I was so used to it I do it. But I've realized that by seeking God face more . And spending more time helps me not to do that. not carry around old burdens. Becuase in a way it by carryng old burdens I don't grow that much in christ. Well that's just my story but I hope this message helps you somehow. God bless and thanks for sharing it's good to know someelse is out there like me.

 

[cowgrl4christ]

i know what you mean cuz im not very good about letting things go so they just sit inside me and stress me out until one day i just want to curl up in a ball and go away. Even if I do tell people that im depressed they dont believe me cuz im usually the happy-go-lucky preson with a smile on their face cheering everyone up and helping everyone with their problems. Lately
its been getting better because everytime something bothers me or i get stressed i pray about it, but its still hard. Gbu!

-cg4C

 

[minory girl]

here to help

Just wanted to post to see what your opinions are on this or if you have any suggestions for me.

I have been a Christian for 3 years now and was baptised last year and I trust and love Jesus with all my heart.

The problem is over the past 2 years I have suffered with depression really badly, I think it started when my uncle Died xmas eve 2004 and this is when things seemed to get really bad.

I went through self harm and really hurting myself and this got really serious but through the love of Christ Jesus I was able to stop myself and have been free of self harm for the past 6 months but the depression hasn't got any better.

I love Jesus and I pray and believe I can be healed but as of yet I have not fully been healed. I pray that it will come in due course but hope can fade sometimes.

I am most of the time a happy person but from time to time for no apparent reason I get really really depressed and hate myself and just hate my life.

In these times I try and think about God and how much he loves me but I can't. Doctors say the unexpected swings of depression that I expireance for no apparent reason is caused by chemical imbalances in my brain, I don't know why they are caused but I just want them to go.

I didn't post this for sympathy I just didn't want to keep it to myself anymore I find it hard to talk to people in real life.

I feel so alone and bad. I feel bad 'coz am a Christian and I feel like its not right that I go through depression and being a Teen I feel like all adults especially Christian ones look down on me I just feel so alone inside.

rick I understand you pain , cuz I in the same boat as you , If you need any help , please feel free to PM any time , I will Help you , if you need it , if you do pm me , then I will be able to give more advice , hope you are ok and know that you are in my prays :girl_hug:

 

[CrazyForChrist]

I experience similar depression problems. But i know that since they are chemical inbalances that they may be resolved after our teen years end. Hugs my brother:boy_hug:

 

[becki]

Hi Rick n__n

I know what you're going through and it bites sometimes. Mine was caused due to a ex boyfriend of mine. But I promise you through Christ we will get through anything. My elder sister was also hurt by an ex and she's going to christian counselling. Our paster gave her the idea, and theirs nothing wrong with going for help. Mind you, you don't have to go for counselling help n__n. I didn't have to. It all depends on the person. You've come to this site to ask for help. You're showing a strength that not many can come to share. Have faith, our father will take care of you and never forsaken you. His lover is patient and kind. He will walk with you and take every step right beside you. He'll catch you if you fall and pick you up again. He will never yell at you or be upset with you if you should feel sad. Tell him your needs and problems and he will answer you. All you need do is listen and love. You'll be alright and remember, your suffering will not last forever. One day you will be with him in heaven and until then you will be protect and loved by him forever. Whenever you're sad just picture him holding you tight. I know it sounds corney but I've always thought it to be a wonderful thing. I hope this helped in some way. God Bless and never feel alone. God is always there to listen, and someone here will always try to lend a hand

Becki

 

[Beak]

hey
just want to let you no your not alone, i had also suffered depression for 2 years after moving across the other side of the country, i didnt no what to do i also had attacks from the devil through my depression crying myself to sleep every night and un sure of what to do, im proud to say now i have gotten over it by praying to God for help and sticking with God through everything i started listening and worshipping at church and now i feel as if nothing can get to me because i have the love of God on my side, as long as you stay with him through everything it will be ok- just remember your never alone. keep up the prayers and never stp relying on God you will get through it.

 

[dryburgh]

Hi Rick!

God Bless you Brother!!

I personally know how much strength and courage it has taken for you to post your worries on this site, talking to people about how you feel and what is happening in your life is the first and often the hardest step!

I know that you are loved so dearly by our Lord Jesus, and when He sees you in this pain, He hurts too, such is the nature of His love for you.

I am now 31 years old and have been free from depression, self harm and destructive patterns for over 2 years now, there is so much hope there is so much love - and it comes through our Lord and Saviour!

I second what Brother Chad is saying - prayer - talk to Jesus so openly about what is pressing on your heart, talk to those close to you, whether it is family, friends, a minister/pastor - support is very important, and Jesus doesnt let us go through the tough times alone, you are Born Again - part of the Body of Christ and there is so much love, support and help within the Body of Christ.

Jesus has really turned my life around, I still have 'off days' I think that is just part of being human, but I now use my direct knowledge of depression and mental illness to help others in the same situation (I am now training to be a Psychiatric Nurse through Gods Grace) and I use my very visible scars to start conversations with people to help bring understanding around the issues of self harm in young people, but also in older people and especially in men, where the stigma for seeking help can be so dangerous - but only through the Love and Grace of our Lord Jesus!

I will pray for you too brother, I know and trust Jesus will bring the healing you need, it may take a slower journey through the healing process than we first hope or wish for - but the healing is there!

Many blessings to you Brother and remember Jesus Loves You.

Peter :star:

 

[becki]

thanks Beak n__n it's nice to hear that. Thankfully my depression has been ...mostly faught off..it comes back now and than but I can handle it with God's help. I think I just get really stressed sometimes and need to vent. Currently I'm up to my neck in assignments that have to be completed as soon as possible. It's both annoying and stressful, one of those piles that never stops growing now matter how much you work. But as I said, thank you so much again and God bless you too xD!!