the Four Towers

[rhymarhyma]

From the earth to the sky, I fly high on borrowed hours
Illuminating showers of light...the Four Towers
Lighting up the shadows of night where darkness hides
Four towers...four walls...defending all four sides...

The first tower is the greatest as it rises high above
Cherry blossom trees, my private geisha offers love
...flowers from within...where you and I are alive...
...love begins to thrive...five, seven, five...
Haiku echoes silently from the heart of the young
I'm still a rhyme unwritten...I'm still a song unsung
but I am loved by the fire of the midnight sun
Above all else, I must guard Tower One...

The second tower stands reminding me of things seen and things unseen
Some of these things are beautiful...some sad, and some obscene
In between division is a vision of today
It matters not the wars I've fought, all that matters is the grey
The grey sometimes turns blue when I close my eyes tight
Tomorrow can't come soon enough, to end this dismal night
The fight I fight is with myself...yet to this, I am blind
Sometimes Tower Two...I find...can be oh, so unkind...

Alone in the third tower, I find myself locked away
Chains and bars and wounds and scars...I blame my yesterday
I blame it, but can't change it...regret is but a lie
Blurry rainbow lights...a final teardrop says goodbye
Imprisoned, I am a prism, in which the Light shines through
Running toward tomorrow, for tomorrow's promised new
I can run away, but I cannot run away from me
so until forever comes, I'll not be free from Tower Three...

I stand before the shores of tower number four
Teeth gnashing, steel slashing...I am witnessing a war
Wave after wave of armies of the dark
I feel the demons bite...I hear the devil dogs bark
The growling and the howling, it seems to never cease
The multitude of angels try and put the tower at peace
Each side wants this tower to be theirs forevermore
The battle rages on...the battle for Tower Four...

Lord, I hear you as you whisper...I am not on my own
so please defend these towers...I cannot do it all alone
The towers that I speak of, I put in your control
the Four Towers of Myself...heart, mind, body and soul...

 

[rhymarhyma]

What if...

What if my life had gone a different way
and I was no longer the person that I am today
If I were completely different, like night and day
Would you still love me always, anyway

What if, my love, I never, ever met you
and it wasn't meant to be that I would ever get you
or if you truly wanted me, but love just wouldn't let you
Even though I didn't know you, could I ever forget you

What if, my child, I'd never met your mother
and in turn never knew you, never knew your brother
Would you still have been born, and raised by another
Could I ever feel the love I feel for you towards any other

What if, my Lord, I didn't know you from the start
and the role I played on earth was of a different part
If I traded salvation for damnation as my future fell apart
I know you'd still cry for me, die for me, and keep me in your heart

 

[rhymarhyma]

Never again to scream

I was falling when you were calling

but you caught me, I survived

and though I'm not of this world

I have finally arrived...


I'm no longer where I was

and I know I'm finally here

and I know it's all because

I've truly shed my final tear


No longer will I cry

Never again to scream

Children dry your eye

for this world is but a dream


The beast is on the prowl

so please make not a peep

He grins a quiet howl

as he comes after the sheep


It is the beast within

that makes us bow to temptation

until the Shepherd steps in

and gives his flock salvation

 

[rhymarhyma]

Unconditional

Hold me, Lord, caress the child inside
the one who see's the darkness and wants to run and hide
The boy who keeps climbing, only to slide
because I finally caught a glimpse from the other side...

I just can't imagine looking my son in his eyes
and seeing the teardrops drop from his cries
and hearing the words from his mouth as he lies
and watching him leave amidst angry goodbyes

I can't imagine seeing him high, and falling on the floor
and not trying to save this little angel I adore
and calling for him, sadly, as he heads out the door
and hearing angry words, "I don't need you anymore!"

No matter how hard I pushed You away
You stayed, and You prayed, and You loved me anyway

"I love you, son, and I know you love me, too
and I won't even explain why you do these things you do
but I want you to know that when you come back through
my love will always be here, my love is always true"

"Leave me alone, I don't want you around
I don't need your rules, I don't need to be bound
I'm not lost, so I don't need to be found
You hear me walking away, right, so get used to the sound"

No matter how often I left You yesterday
You sighed, and You cried, and You loved me anyway

"I need you, Father, please come and get me
You said you'd never give up, said you'd never forget me
I need you to help me because I can't break free
even though I'm not who you wanted me to be"

"It's okay, son, don't be so glum
I knew you'd call me before you'd succumb
We all return to where we came from
and you turned out exactly as I knew you'd become"

Though I know I'm going to slip and let myself get led astray
You'll smile, all the while, and You'll love me anyway