Welcome to my life

[rizen1]

I was born March 23 1985

When I met God

God has always been in my house, he was the one who shot bolts of lightening when you did something wrong. When you heard thunder that was him stomping his feet. I was 9yrs old when I enrolled in a Private christian school, I was introduce to the loving God and how he created this world in 7 days. There was alot of fighting between my parents, but it never bothered me. My dad crown me his princess. He told me I was better than everyone else and I believed him, he had a special scent that I loved. I never knew my home was dysfunctional because I was always loved. In the mist of the broken glass, tears, cursing and yelling I was always top in my class.


Taking our relationship to another level

I was 13 when I joined Faith Hope and Love Center, I was greeted with radical youths for Christ. God seem fun, there was a fire burning within me everytime I went to church. I wanted that high, and Jesus was all I needed. I got baptized, the bible came alive, everything was going good. I played a big part in the drama team, was a worship leader, sunday school, dance team, I performed a Christian dance to " breathe" at the United Nations, HIV Tour.

The fighting at my house had finally cease. I was so busy with the worship,drama and dance team I didnt realise we werent packing for vacation, the family had split.
My dad got a girl friend,and I felt replaced. I went through a depression,but I was grateful to have believers in Christ for support. God kept me


Engaged at 19
What seem like a fairytale turned into a nightmare. When he got back from Iraq, he was different, refuse to attend church. Was dishonest about everything. Became obssess with me. And had like 8 other girls the whole time. His parents was hiding everything hoping I'd be his saviour and bring him back to church.
But God kept me.


The Fall
2005, Violated by my own friend, I felt like I could not trust anyone. When I thought things couldnt get worse my grandma my spiritual rock died. I was upset with God and I hated my dad for not being there for me to protect me and comfort me. Yet God kept me


2006
I rebelled the first 6mths until I couldnt hide from God anymore, he kept calling me and I didnt want to face him. That summer I was betrayed by my friends and I fought with God asking him why he allowed all those bad stuff to happen to me.
I started watching juanita Bynum and joyce meyers whose testimonies were mine. God called me a final time, I didnt fight him, I just said Yes, here I am broken and wounded, I am lost without you. While praying he showed me he was there, in my storms, God kept me


2007
My new season, my new dawn and God was healing my scars, preparing me for something. The spark was there, I was thirsty for God. He took me out of my depression and gave me a song. I no longer feel abandoned by my earthly father, I still have trust issues towards guys but God has restored me for he has a plan and purpose. I just needed a place to praise him. On Feb 22 2007, I found TalkJesus and I've been praising him ever since.

Even though I walked through the valley of shadow and death , God kept me. The devil tried to steal my testimony but God strengthen my faith. God kept me, When I wanted to give up he kept me.

 

[Dreamer]

Beautiful. God kept you.

Well-said and great testimony, thanks rizen1.

 

[trulyblezzed]

Great post sis! I always enjoy the things you write. Honestly I didn't know you were around my age. It's comforting to know I'm not alone in this generation. So it's you, me and Cody holding it down for the TJ youth! Praise God

I'm happy you came back to God's path.. I couldn't imagine TJ without you

xoxo

 

[rizen1]

Thanks sister.

I was ecstatic when you became Mod, I know you're on fire and I can tell you're also a prayer warrior.
I believe God is going to use you with the Youths on tj, and I'll be alside praising him.

God bless you.

My testimony was actually longer and I edited it...lol

 

[rizen1]

I wanted to add something.

During this time, I was attending church and was active, the problem is I wore a mask very well.
And I think many Christians hide their feelings and emotions from others.

I thank God for keeping me, I almost gave up but God held me close so I wouldn't let go.

Now I put no trust in man, but only God, for he is in control.
There is no fear in love.

 

[By His Grace]

Your story is touching and encouraging, it shows how men can be unpredictable but thank God who changes not, the same today, yesterday and Foever more...Alpha and Omega knows our A-Z, thus predestined our lives before the foundation of the earth, so He's able to take us through every valley.

He said in Isaiah that He's inscribed our names upon the palms of His hands, He will never leave nor forsake us. That alone gives me a reason for the future.

Because He lives i can face tomorrow, Halleluyah!:happy:

 

[Property Of God]

You don't know how lovely you are, you're blessed and gifted by God maybe more than so many people on earth!

There are 2 kinds of people
1- those who KNOW they *have* to be good, pretending and pushing themselves to be of good nature.
2- those who are naturally good, they don't fight with it, it's their nature.
You're certainly the 2nd type.

God bless you.

 

[Faithful Son]

Good testimony sister Rizen1. I like the layout of it as well, it should serve as a way to update it when you feel led by God to do so, definitely makes me want to put a testimony on here.

God bless you and I'm happy to know you.

 

[ScottGhost]

Prayer is a powerful friend. Purservier my friend.

 

[rizen1]

God has been Good to me....he is worthy to be praised

 

[Br. Bear]

Yes sister, He is worthy.

23 years ago one of His chidren was born. Never has He nor will He forsake you. Man will always fail you and us, that is men and women will always fail, especially in their own strength, and yet at all times, He is Lord and will never be less than love.

Being broken is never much fun, but where does it say 'fun' in the scriptures?
All things work together for good for the called according to His purpose, and it is the very pains we suffer that magnify His tender love, it is in our afflictions that we receive His glorious comfort and grace.

I certainly hope and pray that you young folk do lift up His name in this dark world.... where most others have fallen asleep.

Your testimony is very moving, and it is the testimony of the Lord, testifying to His love for you.

Thanks for sharing...><>

Bless you

Br. Bear

 

[mc_simmons]

I went through a depression,but I was grateful to have believers in Christ for support. God kept me

His parents was hiding everything hoping I'd be his saviour and bring him back to church.
But God kept me.

I was upset with God and I hated my dad for not being there for me to protect me and comfort me. Yet God kept me

While praying he showed me he was there, in my storms, God kept me

Even though I walked through the valley of shadow and death , God kept me. The devil tried to steal my testimony but God strengthen my faith. God kept me, When I wanted to give up he kept me.

Wow! so touching... I am surely moved and can't resist to praise God for your wonderful testimony sister Rizen1 ...

Since the first day I joined here in TJ, your threads are one of the annointed texts which made me feel assured I am in a right track... I like your diction, I like the way the Holy Spirit sharpens your spiritual pen ... I praise God for His special way in using you as channel of blessings here in TJ.

Thanks for your testimony, it ushers me to know more the sister in Christ I admire across the world. It had almost been a week of joining here when I discovered I am more than ten years older than you and it even amazed me more how the Lord is using you mightily...

And since today is your birthday, I have thought to share this bible verse for you :
"And they will pray for you with deep affection because of the wonderful grace of God shown through you". (2 Corinthians 9:14)

Happy birthday sister Rizen1! I thank the Lord for you:girl_hug:
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[Dreamer]

Quote from Br. Bear: "Being broken is never much fun, but where does it say 'fun' in the scriptures?
All things work together for good for the called according to His purpose, and it is the very pains we suffer that magnify His tender love, it is in our afflictions that we receive His glorious comfort and grace."

This spoke to me so I put it here. Especially the part about 'fun'.

Happy Easter, everyone; Christ has risen!

Rizen1, a special greeting to you, my sister in Christ. I love you. Happy 23rd Birthday very soon.:girl::girl_hug:

 

[souther bell]

You are right, God is a good God...he is worthy to be praised

 

[rizen1]

You all made my day special...thank you.

Love you all...I pray that the joy of salvation fill you.
Goodbye...