What a difference ...

[Apple]

Lying in bed this afternoon, I had time to reflect on the past 4 weeks. The title of an old pop song came into my head - 'What a difference a day makes', but I changed the word day to month - 'What a difference a month makes'.

I reflected on where I was 4 weeks ago. I was in fact still lying in the same bed, but things had changed significantly since then.

Four weeks ago today, I had made many phone calls trying to find out the precise details of how to kill myself. Nobody would tell me. I was very angry and frustrated. Quite simply, I didn't want to try to kill myself and get it wrong and yet nobody would give me the relevant information that I needed to 'get it right'.

I had reached the end of my tether. There was no hope left in my life and no quality of life either. It would be better, I decided, to kill myself rather than to carry on this painful existence. The doctors had already told me that there was nothing more that they could do for me, so I decided that I might as well put myself out of this horrible misery that they called life.

The only problem was that I still wanted to get my suicide 'right'. Having decided that the internet was now my only hope of finding the answer to my suicide predicament, I logged-on and went to 'Google' and entered the appropriate words for searching.

To my dying day, I will never be able to explain how my search ended up at 'Talk Jesus' - but it did!

What I found there was a piece of writing called 'The Father's love letter'. For me that piece of writing offered me some kind of hope that I was desperate to have. It offered me the opportunity to have a relationship with Almighty God - Now how awesome is that???!!! - but more significantly, it was a personal relationship between God and myself.

Now that kind of offer is mind-blowing!!!

I had nothing to offer God and yet he was desiring a personal relationship with me. WOW!

He knew me so well that he knew the number of hairs on my head. (Matthew 10 :29-31) WOW!

He had chosen me. (Ephesians 1 : 11-12) WOW!

His opinion of me was that I was fearfully and wonderfully made. (Psalm 139:14) WOW!

It just went on and on offering me love and hope.

How could I refuse such an offer? - and accept it, I did!!!!!!!



As I was lying in bed this afternoon and thinking, I reflected on the past 4 weeks.
What had I experienced?
What had I learnt?
How had I changed?

What had I experienced?
Quite a few miracles, salvation, God's love, hope, forgiveness and peace.

What had I learnt?
That God loves me soooooooo much and was willing to let his son die for me so that he could have an eternal relationship with me.
That God loves me through other people.
That the Bible is God's love letter to me.

How had I changed?
I was no longer planning my suicide and yesterday, I had begun the process of forgiving my abusers.

I started off by saying that this afternoon, I had been reminded of a song title - 'What a difference a day makes'.

Well, how about ...?

What a difference God makes!

What a difference love makes!

What a difference hope makes!

What a difference peaces makes!

What a difference forgiveness makes!

What a difference ...

THANK YOU GOD!!!!!!!

 

[rizen1]

Jesus is Lord

Praise God, from whom all blessing flow..

 

[Cody]

Praise God! His love is so beautiful. He loved us before we even knew him, how great is that? God bless you sister!

1 John 4:19
"We love him, because he first loved us."

 

[ladylovesJesus]

Wow Wow Wow what an awesome testimony. Bright sparkling eyes that is so inspiring to read. You shared it so beautifully.

What a difference God makes.

It is good to see you Thanking God too for He is truly working in your life and helping you to see the truth. You know that the truth sets you free too.

Praise God for leading you here to get the help you needed and for you to give your heart to Jesus and to live for Him.

You were seeking Jesus.

Jeremiah 29.11.

For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. 12 Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. 13 You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. 14 I will be found by you," declares the LORD, "and will bring you back from captivity. I will gather you from all the nations and places where I have banished you," declares the LORD, "and will bring you back to the place from which I carried you into exile."


God bless you dearest sister

Love in Christ :rainbow: :rose:

 

[stephen]

That is such wonderful news. You reminded us that just a short while ago things for you were so different.

And now what a difference. We do give praise to God for what he has done.

Since Jesus came into my heart, Since Jesus came into my heart, Floods of joy o'er my soul like the sea billows roll, Since Jesus, came into my heart.

We will continue to pray.......this is only the beginning!

 

[Sleepy]

Wow

Thank you... This is awesome and sooooooooo inspiring x

Love in Him

 

[Apple]

We will continue to pray.......this is only the beginning!

Thank you to everybody who has given such positive feedback to this post. However, I agree with Stephen - I still need a lot of prayer!

Thanks

 

[Word of Life]

That was such an awesome testimony sadeyes, it really touched my heart. Watching, reading, and replying to some of your threads, I could see how God was changing you.

He will strengthen you when you feel weak, He will comfort you when you feel sad and troubled and He will guide you and lead into the truth. And He will never leave you.

Joh 14:18 I will not leave you comfortless: I will come to you.

I have learnt so much from you, when reading your posts, sometimes I looked at my own self and realised, God was working through you, by telling me something that needed correcting in my own life, He pointed this out, through you.

God is good, always, and He will never let you down.

Luk 2:14 Glory to God in the highest, and on earth peace, good will toward men.

Luk 19:38 Saying, Blessed be the King that cometh in the name of the Lord: peace in heaven, and glory in the highest.

 

[Apple]

I have learnt so much from you, when reading your posts, sometimes I looked at my own self and realised, God was working through you, by telling me something that needed correcting in my own life, He pointed this out, through you.

I believe you because there is no reason why you would be lying to me, but I find it so hard to imagine that you could have learnt anything from me. I am the one who seems to know so little and am always having to ask questions!!!! - LoL



And God working through me ... that is mind blowing!!!! Really? WOW!

 

[Kingskid]

So excited and rejoicing with you!

I am so excited to hear your hearts cry rejoicing in God! How GREAT is our
GOD! What a powerful testimony! I have told you before and I'll tell you
again that you are a gift to us too! I really love being around new Christians!When I am, I get excited in Jesus all over again! From the time Jesus trulyset me free it has been my desire to see others set free! When Jesus sets us free that is true freedom!

I loved when Dreamer started calling you Brighteyes because that was
speaking life over you even though you were sad. I am reminded of the verse in Matthew 6:22 "The lamp of the body is the is the eye. If therefore your eye is good (clear, healthy), your whole body will be full of light."

You just keep walking with Jesus and keep testifying. It is so true that we
overcome by the blood of the Lamb (Jesus) and the word of our testimony.

I am reminded of the song that says:

And He walks with me and He talks with me. And He tells me I am His own. And the joy we share as we tarry there none other has ever known.

He is so personal and upclose with each of us. You are such a blessing,
Brighteyes! We will continue to pray for you and you keep lifting Jesus up!
You are the apple of His eye! It is exciting to hear that He is the apple of
your eye too!

I love you much, dear Sister! :girl_hug:

 

[Apple]

You are the apple of His eye! It is exciting to hear that He is the apple of
your eye too!

Thank you so much for your encouraging post Kingskid.

Now you know why I chose this avatar and signature!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

[Dreamer]

Christ has made all the difference in you, Calendar Girl (I formerly called you sadeyes, not now.)

And He will continue to make the difference in you!

When you prayed to receive Jesus as your Lord and Savior, after reading The Father's Loveletter, that is when He began His good work in you!

And He has made all the difference in your life!

He will continue His work in you, hallelujah!

No weapon that is formed against your mind, body, or spirit shall prosper! For you are the Lord's child, and you have received His grace and healing.

God bless you, Calendargirl. To me, you will always be our Calendar Girl at talk Jesus. And yes, you are an inspiration to many.

 

[Apple]

Thank you soooo much for your love, care, encouragement and prayers.

Forgiving my father was a big step to take and with Jesus' help I was able to do it.

Praise God!

I am so happy!!!!!!!!!!

 

[calluna]

This is a beautiful testimony. Praise God for this wonderful transformation already. Keep on keeping on sister.

Yes the Lord has used you, for me your testimony is a reassurance, a confirmation of how Powerful and Amazing God is. It's encouraging to hear of your story of how you were so close to suicide and how Jesus saved you. It's an awesome testimony to His love for us. I am blown away by how the Lord has changed you so quickly.

You came to TJ and have evidently been blessed by the love and encouragement you received, but we too as someone mentioned a while ago are blessed by your presence here at TJ. It is a privilige to pray for you and encourage you, or for anyone who appears to need help. People enter and leave our lives, and by these encounters, I believe God is always trying to teach us, remind us or confirm some truth about who He is. Sometimes we miss it, sometimes we get it. When you came here, I don't think any of us missed it.

I will continue to pray for you. I hope each day gets brighter and brighter for you and filled with hope, peace and joy of the Lord.

God Bless you little Apple

Calluna

 

[Apple]

What a beautiful post. Thank you for taking the time to write it.

"Sometimes we miss it, sometimes we get it. When you came here, I don't think any of us missed it."

- When I read that, I burst out laughing!!!!!!!! I'm just full of questions and amazement and put those two factors together, you end up with somebody who posts a lot!!!!!!!!!!

Thank you for your prayers