What am I afraid of?

[Am_I_Blessed]

What is holding me back from committing my life totally to Christ? I have been baptized, read the Bible...and pray. However, something just doesn't feel right. I am not sure if I am afraid of giving up a control I feel I have on my life, even though I always say "God will always take care of, and work things out for me, if I pray." I think I struggle a lot with faith, and God, and being a good person, while trying to hard to NOT be or DO things that in the eyes of God are sins. Does anyone have any input or advice?



Truly,
Am_I_Blessed

 

[Coconut]

Am_I_Blessed, it does no good to pray and read the bible or try to be a good person if you are not willing to let Christ be Lord of your life, thats what He calls play acting. The only thing holding you back is you...


GNB Psa 37:5 Give yourself to the LORD; trust in him, and he will help you; he will make your righteousness shine like the noonday sun.

 

[Am_I_Blessed]

Play acting...wow, I NEVER thought about it...like really thought about it that way. I want my whole heart to be in this, and I want it so much. You are right Coconut, the only one that is stopping me is ME.

Truly,
Am_I_Blessed

 

[Boanerges]

Amen Coconut!
We must grow in relationship with, knowledge of and assurance that our God wants to move in our lives. This is done in worship, prayer, time in the Word.
Remember I A B that since Adam sinned man's flesh has wanted to be in charge. The Holy Spirit of God leads us deeper into death to our old self so that we may experience the newness of life that we were created to walk in.
So let us focus our heart's on Jesus and we will see change:
2Co 3:18 But we all, with open face beholding as in a glass the glory of the Lord, are changed into the same image from glory to glory, even as by the Spirit of the Lord.

 

[Victory53]

What is holding me back from committing my life totally to Christ? I have been baptized, read the Bible...and pray. However, something just doesn't feel right. I am not sure if I am afraid of giving up a control I feel I have on my life, even though I always say "God will always take care of, and work things out for me, if I pray." I think I struggle a lot with faith, and God, and being a good person, while trying to hard to NOT be or DO things that in the eyes of God are sins. Does anyone have any input or advice?



Truly,
Am_I_Blessed

Do you have fellowship with other Christians? It really sounds like you need encouragement. What about serving the local body of Christ with the spiritual gift God has given you? In other words, die to your self and serve others?

 

[Am_I_Blessed]

Well thank you all for your input. I know I need ti surround myself with more Christians. I have a few people in my life to help me with this. I am also glad for the insight that everyone here and this site offer.
Truly
Bless

 

[pebosworth]

I went through the same thing, we all go through times of feeling far away from God and then close to God. I just came out of one of those patches and I often doubt my salvation when I'm in it. There is nothing wrong with questioning your salvation (Philippians 2:12), it's better now than after you die when it's too late. By questioning your salvation you are making much effort to secure your relationship with God, don't ever stop doing that, we will never be good enough and we should always be looking for something more, something greater in our Christian walk. Those that get too comfortable in their faith, tend to close themselves off to learning new things and unknowingly affect their walk.

If your child came to you and swore at you, you would be angry right? Would you want a heartfelt apology or just want to hear the words "I'm sorry"? If you clearly saw how sorry he really was, you would open your arms up, give him the biggest hug and forgive him. If he seemed very nonchalant about it and just said sorry because he had to, you would probably not truly forgive him, you would always be wondering if he'll do it again or get worse, OR you would certainly think he doesn't love you or care about you and I'm sure many other thoughts would follow.

My point I'm trying to make is, to know you are truly saved is to truly repent, to be sincere in asking for forgiveness and to turn from that sin (make a concious effort to not sin again) even though God knows you are not perfect, He still expects you to try, but if you truly repented then everything else will follow naturally. If you haven't fallen to the ground in shame, crying and begging for forgiveness before God, you probably haven't repented. What do you repent of? Go through the 10 Commandments, see which ones of God's perfect standards you have failed on and ask Him to reveal any hidden sins you're unaware of.

 

[blessed07]

I can feel what you are saying

I felt the same way , i wanted to be saved but did't want to commit my life , i wanted to keep doing what i was doing .

but thank god I had a mom and grandmother who were praying for thier children and grandchildren.

I started reading the word and the lord started showing me things,
and i wanted to know more,

I wanted a real relationship with jesus and the holyspirit.

then when i did get baptise and i was happy and was telling every one i was saved !!!!!!!!!!

and i had a lady walk up to me and tell me i was't saved until i recieved the holyghost and spoke in tongues ,

and it worried me because i was young in christ.
i prayed about what she had told me
and the lord took me to 1 CORINTHIANS 12
I read the whole chapter and i got so much understanding .

i thank god for saving me and dieing on the cross for me
because i need him every minute of my life,

and yes I am in loved with jesus ,
he's jehovah jireh( the lord will provide)
and he does that for me every day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

have a blesssssssssssed weekend
your sister in christ

blessed07:angelwings: