Dear Frank
Although you need prayer my friend I feel in my heart you should seek, one to one, with a Christian Counsellor. May be that should be one of your first prayers.
I had a period when all my past opened up, forty years of it, it was like a can of evil worms eating me away inside. I prayed and asked for prayer as you are doing brother, I felt I needed one to one counselling, then one day I went to my doctor, he could tell I was troubled before I told him anything, he asked did I have problems, he said I feel you have problems Paul, at that point I confirmed I felt I needed a Christian Counsellor, he told me to wait a minute, he said I just have to pop out, I'll be back in a minute. He was only a short time and back in he walked with a lady. He said to me, this is Margaret, she is a Christian, she is a counsellor. Margaret introduced herself and we left to surgery going into another room to talk. It wasn't easy, I had counselling once a week for eight months, it was the best thing I could have done. If we try sort out issues inside they bind our attention, the demand our focus, we cannot get rid of them, they have to be dealt with.
Meeting with another Christian and talking things out helps the flesh, which includes the mind, release what is causing us to think the way we do, but we also need prayer my friend, these things grip us within, the chains need to be broken for us to be set free. So we come to Jesus, lay every issue at His feet and walk away and leave them there, the first is easy, leaving is what people struggle with most, because the chains that are binding you must be broken. So take the yoke Jesus offers upon you Frank, His yoke is light and easy to bear, pour your heart out to the Lord my friend.
We share the load Frank, first the spiritual load with Jesus, then the flesh load with fellow believers who can pray and stand in faith with you, we rebuke the devil my friend, in Jesus Name. We rebuke him right now, he has no right over any saved soul, we rebuke the enemy of souls, we tell him Jesus is our Lord, rebuke him my friend and he will flea.
But I also feel in my heart you need to pray about seeing a Christian counsellor, someone more experienced in the flesh issues you are experiencing, again it is sharing the load, for men this is often hard, we become desperate before we give in, for me, giving in to let the Lord help me and then to a Christian Counsellor was the best think I could do, the Holy Spirit worked through the doctor, through Margaret, through me, it took time but in the end I was set free. It is our heart felt prayer you will be too brother. We ask these things, we pray in Jesus Name. Amen
God Bless you Frank, asking for prayer is a great beginning, it sets the ball rolling my friend, please keep us up to date and when you want specific prayer just ask.
Jesus Loves YOU, we do too.
In His Love.