Help i dont know what to do, i am 27 female and single, i would love to get married, i cant see my future though.
I have depression and due to this i recently had to leave univeristy and return home.
I was baptised 21st january 2007 at university and my friends spent the afternoon with me playing board games, as one of my friends were leaving my housemate and i were showing him out, my housemate disappeared and he asked me something i didnt hear him but i was too shy and scared to ask him to repeat him self, so i just escaped it and said no even though i didnt hear the question. Then he looked really hurt and walked away. That was a year just over a year ago, and since then i have become really ill with depression and he has started working for the church for a year, we had not communicated since then he had his life and i had mine, i never approached him about it. Anyway my depression became such that i ended up attempting suicide and spending a weekend in a mental health assesment unit. Then shortly after returned home to my parents.
Anyway thats just background info and as he works for the church i dont know how much information he knows about me apart from the fact of me disappearing.
The events on the day of my baptism have stuck with me since and have been at the back of my mind but recently the devil or i dont know seemed that it was fitting to hit me with strong thoguhts of i should have done this youve missed a great oppertunity and all.
This man is such a nice genuine man of God and the thought that he may have asked me out and i said no really has effected me.
So yesterday after another desturbed night about it i emailed him, and was honest with him about what happened and such.
This may come to nothing i know but now i have done this God has granted me peace about.
The ball in now in the mans court.
PLEASE pray for me.
If he is not the man for me i pray that something will happen soon i am becoming desparate being single like this.
Please help.
PG
I have depression and due to this i recently had to leave univeristy and return home.
I was baptised 21st january 2007 at university and my friends spent the afternoon with me playing board games, as one of my friends were leaving my housemate and i were showing him out, my housemate disappeared and he asked me something i didnt hear him but i was too shy and scared to ask him to repeat him self, so i just escaped it and said no even though i didnt hear the question. Then he looked really hurt and walked away. That was a year just over a year ago, and since then i have become really ill with depression and he has started working for the church for a year, we had not communicated since then he had his life and i had mine, i never approached him about it. Anyway my depression became such that i ended up attempting suicide and spending a weekend in a mental health assesment unit. Then shortly after returned home to my parents.
Anyway thats just background info and as he works for the church i dont know how much information he knows about me apart from the fact of me disappearing.
The events on the day of my baptism have stuck with me since and have been at the back of my mind but recently the devil or i dont know seemed that it was fitting to hit me with strong thoguhts of i should have done this youve missed a great oppertunity and all.
This man is such a nice genuine man of God and the thought that he may have asked me out and i said no really has effected me.
So yesterday after another desturbed night about it i emailed him, and was honest with him about what happened and such.
This may come to nothing i know but now i have done this God has granted me peace about.
The ball in now in the mans court.
PLEASE pray for me.
If he is not the man for me i pray that something will happen soon i am becoming desparate being single like this.
Please help.
PG