Hallo FirmFoundation
I do really feel for you and while reading your letter I felt the Holy Spirit move in me. I felt major compassion and love. I experience that the Lord really wants to help you and He loves you majorly, seriously, without a doubt very very much.
What I learned in my life is we can never do anything out of ourselves. God gave His Son Jesus to die for us on the Cross while we were still sinners. He didn't need our influance to make His decision. He made it out of Pure Love for us and Grace.
I also experienced difficulties with my flesh - I had an anger problem. The more I concentrated to change the anger problem and myself the more I saw things wrong with me and before I knew it, I was hopelessly depressed with myself. But the Holy Spirit lead allot of my brothers and sisters as well as books and the bible on my path to tell me that I must forget about my short commings/faults and put my full concentration on Jesus - for example: talk to Him, spend time with Him, wait in silence for Him to answer you, learn more about Him, read the bible allot and listen to allot of good gospel music. Correct gospel music will cause the Holy Spirit to ster inside of you, you'll feel it in your stomach (my own experience)
And talking about gospel, there's a great song by Hillsong called "Turn your eyes upon Jesus - it says: Turn your eyes upon Jesus, look full in His wonderfull face. And the things of this world will grow strangely dimm, in the Light of His glory and grace"
Hope you feel much better and I would like to pray for you now:
Dear God our Father, I come to you in the Name of Your Son Jesus Christ and I bring my sister to You, You made her dear Father, You created het heart and her mind, You know the state of it at this very moment. Father You say in Your Word that You are a God of impossible things and we want to thank You in this prayer for helping this sister in her journey towards You, to be closer to You, to be one with You. We believe in our hearts that she is a overcommer, a mountain mover and that You didn't give her a spirit of fear, but of power, love and a sound mind (2Tim1:7) Father we know that she will become a strong tool in Your hands to lead more lesbian strugglers to You dear God, because You know that thats an area in this world thats being rejected by first glance and so You are working on this sister to prepare her for her mission to help those people because she understands their frustration, hurt and pain. Thank you dear Lord God that You are always, always there for us and that You will NEVER give up on us.
We love You and we will praise Your Name forever. Thank you for the Almighty work that You are already doing in this sisters life. Thank you. In Jesus Name we pray. Amen.
Blessings Sister
Sheep
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