'Born again', giving your life over to Jesus and getting 'saved' so you go to heaven. I had that dogma forced down my throat all throughout my childhood. Looking back I am truly amazed I held out until I was eleven before giving into the pressure I was under. I tried to keep the doubts under wraps and try to be a good little Christian for a few years, even trying to convert my school friends, thankfully without success! However I did stand firm when I was 13. I was due to have surgery on my eyes and a few days before a Christian 'healer' was to conduct a 'healing' service at our church. My instincts told me it was hocus pocus and I preferred to submit to surgery than a so called 'healer'. Some years later we heard the guy had been outed as a charlatan, as so many of them are! When I was 14 the married pastor at our church like to stroke my thigh when driving me home fro the midweek youth service, telling me how beautiful my mother was. I know so many of the so called 'saved' who have cheated on their partners, including a very close relative, no doubt believing once saved always 'saved'!
My late parents-in-law were Bible believing, dyed in the wool of the lamb, 'born agains'. I never saw them smile and they were a pain in the neck. Father-in-law used towrite my husband letters telling him how disappointed they were in him and quoting endless mindless Biblical verses! HOW SICK. :secret: When asked to put his hand in his pocket for a donation for starving people, he refused saying he would only give money for Bibles for them as that was more important! What an idiot! Mother-in-law and the deity were buddies, it agreed with all her thoughts, even down to which TV programmes she preferred and what clothes to wear! Actually that was highly amusing!
A faith which insists you believe or else is highly unpleasant. If Jesus was alive today instead of long dead as I believe him to be, I wonder what he might make of those who make threats in his name? "Depart from me for I never knew you!" could well apply to some of the 'born again's' who make the lives of others a misery with their nasty spiel. Far from making people want some of the action it has the effect of turning them right off!:baffle:
I am so sorry for the pain you experienced and how it has carried on with you throughout the years. We who love the Lord and love you as well whether you believe that or not, cannot but feel for what happened to you as a child, and the damage it has done in distorting the message that really is about love and a joy that can be difficult to comprehension when set against what the world would call love. Too often the messengers confuse or twist the message that was given through Christ Jesus, and His Apostles. Theirs was a hard life, death, and yet you can find the joy also within the words available to you. The underlining understanding that the ravages of life as we now know and experience should not, is not, an impediment to what the future holds for those who believe. Yet you continue to allow the earlier experiences and maybe even others experiences throughout your life, in turn determined by others, motivated by who knows what, to color what your own children have found hope in. Christianity since its inception has had those who have distorted, perverted, lied, made up, or just been plan confused about what Christ Jesus came to do, and desired for those who believe in Him to carry on with until His return to do as well. Not to confuse the issue there is a darkness as well that permeates the world and affects the very perceptions of people. Since you've read scripture if you can recall when Jesus was taken out to the desert to be tempted. Satan used scripture, in an attempt to derail Him. Is it any wonder that some of the worse that is perceived by those who don't know Him. Are swayed by those who in His name justify what is contrary to His teaching by using the very book meant to instruct and learn by? Your upbringing is a perfect example of such. However, the very light that is Christ Jesus, is available to those who seek His truth, as you may not admit to, are doing here now at TJ.
On the born again concept on the surface it appears that you only have a part in understanding what "Born Again" means. You went from birth to full grown adult in one leap! Were it only so! As a baby newly born goes through pains of understanding and experiences, so does the Born Again Christian. A growing process if you will. The experiences normally taught may even come through hard and painful times. Take a look at the lives of the Apostles and you will see this very thing. None of us are perfect or profess to be (might be some out there who might think they are) yet traveling that road to that goal is a worthy road to travel. A process of growth.
There is a reason why scripture says "Study to shew thyself approved unto God, a workman that needeth not to be ashamed, rightly dividing the word of truth." . When doctrines as you know get thrown about here and there, saying "do this", "don't do this" only if one can know His Word and understand the context within the entirety of His Word the significance of what is being read, as revealed by the Holy Spirit will be the who is able to identify what is or is not of God. How did Jesus reply back to Satan?
The availability of what you have at hand to determine the truth, requires a belief, an open heart seeking truth, which if you don't have provides one with little of value. Likely, more confusion, frustration, and a greater tendency to give credence to nay sayers which is the category that you're currently in, and one which I pray and hope you won't be residing in for long.
I will end with this. As a child you recognized that something was amiss with the folks around you and how they were behaving. Yet when alone, outside the contrivance of anyone else, there was a part of you that knew that He was. Sadly, the folks had made you too afraid to go directly to Him, though you might have. You might have asked Him to get you out of there away from these people and these things they were babbling about. If you were to think about it, that is exactly what He did, but you left one thing behind that you should have taken with you and that was Him. To be truthful, I don't think He has left you behind.
Still loving and praying for you JJ50
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