This why you have no clue how this could be unless you believed God knows all things which you don't, so it will always be a mystery to you. The Lord knows every move, every decision, every thought you will have before he created the world, yet you have complete free will to think, and do what ever you want.
I believe God knows all there is to know. Our decisions from free will are not something that can be known, because I believe in ''True free will''. You and Sue don't. So it is difficult to understand why you use that word. I feel you need to use ''clown / puppet / pet''.
Free will = the ability to
choose between different possible courses of
action unimpeded.
How can this be if we are made a vessel unto dishonor? To have free will requires God to make us vessels unto ''honor
or dishonor''. That requires God to limit His omniscience / not know something He can know. Just as He can create something evil, does not mean He does. Likewise knowing something when knowing it can easily be proven to be evil.
"Do I believe as Calvinists do that God can make a vessel unto dishonor"
God can make anything he wants since he is God, the creator! Does God make men vessels unto dishonor? Nope!!!
You say 'nope'. Why?
I don't understand why you say that. You believe God is all knowing. You believe God is the creator of all. Yet you say 'nope'?
He did not know that when He made every atom that constitutes Judas, that they in a living state react in manner that would result in Judas betraying Jesus?
But if he did, who are you to condemn him if he does? Would the one created say unto his creator why have you made me this way?
As per Gen 3:22 God has given us the ability to know good and evil. God forbid we not use our God given brains to aid us in deciding who we want to serve.
Nobody wants to serve an evil God. A partial God is an evil God.
If God made a vessel unto dishonor and there was no eternal torment in hell, then yes, we can defend God. If God made a vessel unto dishonor and universalism was true, then yes, we can defend God. If God made a vessel unto dishonor and annihilation of the wicked was true, then yes, we can defend God.
In these instances we could defend God as being neutral. Not evil. No real evidence of good either. The bible says God is exceedingly good. So we need to work backwards on our understanding of creating vessels unto dishonor.