Gifts for you, Apple
Dear Apple,
I wish to share with you the beautiful gifts that our Father has for you,
but first...
do you know what repent means? I ask you to do some repenting right now, with confession of truth, and to search deeply in your soul for the determination you say you have as a 'fighter'. You must do this to open the way for the blessings to come to you...truely, and there is not even a hair of a fraction of a millionth of an ounce of judgement nor condemnation from me, dear Apple, so, in order for the Prince of Peace to do His mighty work, you must prepare the way for His coming. Repent of the mere thought/contemplation of suicide. Also, repent of all those miserable feelings that will continue to keep you bound to them so long as you think, speak and type them. Now, in conjunction to doing this, start to confess better things, holy things, pure things. Apple, there is a scripture that goes like this, ,, whatsoever things are true, honest, just, pure, lovely, of good report, anything of virtue and worthy of praise....think of these things!
Take this scripture and eat it, it's not just there for pretty words, but food for your life. If you really want the gifts that the Lord has for you, you must start desiring and looking with purer focus, and just as you tend to all your other physical needs, pampering yourself with food and washing, bedding and the like, as we all do, you must start pampering with things pertaining to the above mentioned scripture. Must.
Now, before I go on, as far as being a failure goes, I do not here intend to contradict anything that has been written by fellow Christians, in fact, if you have been praying, it is time to take seriously the advice that has been sent to you, for the answers you have so far received have been given you after much earnest prayer...the folks at TJ don't just rattle off the first thing that enters their empty or bored minds, but from hearts ablaze and minds full of meditation on the word of God, with more earnest prayer than can be contained within the bounds of this forum...(I say these things totally independently, as my spirit bears witness to the spirit of God working in and through your friends here at TJ; I tell you this because you need to see a bit more than you do so far, and follow the directions just as you would from a doctor if he prescribed medication to you)...so, as far as being a failure goes, well, you are! SO AM I !!! and it is not until we come to the full realization of this that we can really be set free from the old, decaying, sin stained nature. There is no glory room for any of us available...all, yes ALL glory is due to the King, Jesus Christ the living Lord, so the sooner we empty ourselves , the sooner we can be filled with His joy. When we realise just how much we are failures, we see just how much it is His strength, His power, His victory that gives us above all we ask and think of to attain the heights of praise and rejoicing, overflowing to the world around us. It is then we can truely confess our worth, as we then know the value of His life in us and just how precious we are to Him who died that we may be forgiven and receive everlasting life, and abundant life it is.
Finally, I ask that you prepare quickly, yes urgently, for the immersion into baptism...of both water and spirit, for if everyone else has had to do it right from Jesus Himself until this present day, then you too must be baptised, Apple. Yield yourself totally to Jesus and He will wash you like you've never been washed before, and fill you to overflowing with His joyful love, and the victory will be yours to share....no longer will depressing , discouraging spirits rule your emotions and feelings.
And whether you like it or not, I for one am and will be praying for you that you start to receive the gifts that God has for you, and you alone, prepared for you while you were afar off.
Please re-read this a couple of times and you will begin to realise the many gifts contained within...then do, yes do these things, all of them, please dear Apple, in Jesus name I ask you.
Bless you,
Br. Bear. ps...Philippians 4:8 and yes...
you are not discouraged, not discouraged, not dis couraged, but if you read the many words of encouragement already given to you, you will find with great joy that you have been thouroughly encouraged in this thread, Apple, and I'll add a bit more...
you are so very precious to us all and so much even more to our Lord and Saviour. Just look at yourself, and even amidst the pain, you are fearfully and wonderously made...next time you type anything, consider and marvel just how much a magnificent creature you are to sit and use your fingers like that...and don't stop there, marvel at all you can do...and consider this...the God who made your magnificent body gave His only begotten Son for you because you are so extemely valuable to Him .. He loves you!!! and, your step of faith means much more to me than all the gold in this world, your life is such an inspiration to me , dear Apple, your determination and fight, your asking publicly for help is such a humbling and convicting, bold act that leaves me in admiration. You outshine me, you do! You have beautiful days ahead of you...and expect healing, dear friend...it is yours, in the name of the Father,Son and Holy Ghost, it is yours, oh bless you!
