Hi CrazyforChrist,
So, if you think you are standing firm, be careful that you don't fall! No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it. (1cor 10:12).
If it is any consolation I know what it is like to be a teenager and want to feel loved and have attention from the opposite sex in fact I craved it. Although, I am not a teen anymore I went through a time when I felt a distance between my parents and myself. At that point I felt very alone even though I was surrounded by people.
Those feelings in me contributed to a teenage pregnancy. I looked at having a baby through rose coloured glass (although I did not plan to have a baby at the time I thought the baby would give me the love craved) and that outlook resulted in me taking what I thought was a calculated risk. I obviously love my daughter but it was the wrong time in my life to take on extra responsibility and parent a family. I was not a Christian at the time and didn't really have a guide to follow. I didn't have the holy spirit to bless me with self control.
Anyway my point is that you have a solid faith something which I didn't have during my teenage years. You will never be alone. The door has been opened to you. You have light in your life and a glorious future to look forward to. You have many adventures ahead of you and some of them you have to journey on your own and some later on when the time is right you may chose to share with someone special.
All you may need is just to take a step back to assess and look at things. Maybe there is a Christian youth retreat you could go to. Do you have a plan to go/do something positve and enjoyable at the end of all the hardwork and responsibility? Sometimes it helps if we have something in the near future to look forward to, to keep us motivated and keep our objectivity and positivity. What are your goals in life? Everyone needs to feel like they are making progress. The Lord wants you to be performing at your best, he wants that you do what is necessary for yourself so that you have clear head and a clear conscience, so that you can ultimately bring glory to his name and save others. Before we can help others we need to accept that there is soul inside us that needs nurturing also. A firefighter puts his own oxygen mask on first before he tackles the blaze and rescues others!
I will say a prayer for you that the Lord sends you the answers that you need.
God Bless
Eve