im sorry you feel that way. God is a God of love but also a God of wrath. man has sinned and there is a judgement for that. thank God he offers mercy and trhe forgiveness of sin through our Lord Jesus Christ. as for religions they are a dime a dozen, many of them not worth thier salt., its not religion we need anyway its relationship. how can a person understand God unless they know God. he offers a free pardon from sin, howbe it it cost Christ his life to buy that pardon. trust him ,make him youres today, know God. and in that relationship youll get youre answers.