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Angel's Love

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Hi, I'm new to these forums and to be honest do not wish to give my real name or anything but everyone seems to call me angel sooo... To be honest, I joined these forums because Im looking for purpose and direction in my life right now. I have neither. As a matter of fact, recently Ive done some things that are not considered to be "good things" in the eyes of the Lord. Actually a lot of things... But Ive lost all of my faith, my morality, myself, everything. I dont know who I am or what I want out of life and nowadays it seems I just stay depressed and am always looking for a reason to consider myself a good person. Ive tried suicide and that didnt work out, and to be honest ive been reading a lot of angel stories online and now that I look back it seems there was an angel watching over me a LOT. Why? Does God really exist? Why am I here? I used to be certain without question in my faith and now I'm just completely stumpped about everything. I also suffer from depression and anxiety issues that dont come on occasionally but that are with me all the time. Something about something being imbalanced.

I also just got out of a bad relationship and the person I was with was an alcholic and abusive phisically as well as mentaly. That being said I HAVE NEVER HIT A WOMAN NO MATTER THE CIRCUMSTANCES!! I gave her everything and she tossed it aside. Does true love even exist. Im 24 and just recently broke my virginity. I thought I was in love and she was a different person when I first met her. I used to consider myself a good person but I dont even think of myself like that anymore. To be honest the relationship I had was an affair until she got divorced. I refuse to explain any further just incase this is ever found but... Im a horrible person and it does me no good to breath anymore I feel. Im in such a bad place right now and Ive lost my faith so long ago I cant even remember a shred of time when I picked up a bible. I have no purpose, no direction, no faith, Im a sinking boat floating in my own misery.

That all being said there is no reason for a normal person to be this miserable in my position right now. I have a great job, few but loyal friends, a great family my health, well, most of it, a vehicle. I mean, what is going on in my life? I can think of more than 1 situation to be honest where I might have even been dead but something stopped it and I feel that might have even been an angel. But why are they wasting time with me? Shouldnt they be out helping good people? Im so lost right now I dont even know where to begin everything. I feel empty and alone.
 
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God is real, I know for he made himself known to me.

He is a God of New Beginnings, but first on the agenda, is you need to come to him first, in faith believing, and be born again.

That is the open door, to a new life....Jesus said, behold, I stand at the door and knock, if any man open the door I will come in, and sup with him,and he with me......God cannot lie, so you just need to believe to start your new walk.

This is man kind, not just a man....OK?

From your story, I believe God is knocking at your hearts door, that is why you are here, and seeking.
No other advice will work for you until you come to Jesus, on his terms, and ask him to be your savior.
He loves you, so much he died in your place to set you free ,and give you life.

What must we do to be saved?

Believe on the Lord, Jesus Christ, and thou shalt be saved.....ask him to come into your heart, then tell someone you have.....that is the first step to a new beginning.

Quietly ,right there in your home, you can come before him in prayer, and he will hear your hearts cry.....it is up to you to make the next move, he is drawing you, now you need to come to him.

I will be praying you will.....:friends::love:
 
I read your post and as I read it...the Parable of the Lost Sheep came to mind. It is found in Luke 15...read all three of those Parables. I think these show how Jesus is with us. When one of us goes lost, He searches for us. When one of us comes back to Him, He rejoices!

I know God exists because He lives in my heart as my pastor says.

I am not one to know all the answers to everything, but I do know this much. God is watching you and He has reached out His hand...waiting and waiting for you to take it. You'll have to leave all your worry and fear behind. He loves you more than you know.

True love doesn't come from fellow humans...humans can hurt us and betray us (even the 'good' ones!), but there is One who will NEVER leave nor forsake us and His name is Jesus! He's all you need.

Everything happens for a purpose. I don't know why your life is this way...could be that God is trying to wake you up to the fact that He has never left you...you left Him.

I wouldn't be surprised if God is showing you no matter what you've done, He STILL cares about you and WANTS you! See He doesn't really need us...but He WANTS us! We can't do anything without Him.

No one is really good...being good won't get you into Heaven any faster than trying to fit a camel through the eye of a needle.

God is knocking on the door of your heart and all you have to do is open it. Ask Him what He wants of you. Read the Bible. Shut out satan from your life. Keep asking questions. There are answers in God and His Word. Go find them!
 
Amen, and I remember when God walked through the garden that day, after Adam and Eve had sinned, he called out, "Adam where art thou!" It wasn't because he had lost Adam, he knew right where is was, just as he knows right where you are, he was asking Adam, do you know where you are?
It is a good thing to realize where we are spiritually, then we can come
to God, in spirit and truth, with a humble and contrite heart, and receive mercy, and grace to be saved.

No, God hasn't lost you, and he says to us, when you seek
him with our whole heart we will find him....

Psalms 51:17 also promises:

a broken and contrite heart,O God, thou wilt not despise.
 
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welcome angels lost....i think all of us have been in the same boat as you, at one time or another...trying to survive the moment is the hardest part....rely on jesus to help you out...and when it comes to love , there are many fish in the sea...you will find your soul mate but its takes patience and sometimes luck....pray for guidance and never give up on the lord...god bless you
Heavens Ranger
 
Hello Angel's love.
There is not much more I can offer that the other posts hasnt already offered.
I know how you feel. I have been where you are at right now. I have done some shabby things in my time and wondered how can I even be worthy to ask for Gods forgiveness. Of course I now know that was a lie from the devil. I did ask forgiveness and I received it. Seems to me you are at the point where you have no choice except to believe that there is a God or not. If you choose to believe that there is- and there is- then you have to give it all over to him. You have nothing to lose at this point in trusting on the Lord for His help. I can promise you this- when you decide to let go and let God, you will feel a tremendous relief. There will be hard times and times when it seems all is lost, but I have learned from experience that all is not lost when it seems that it is and that the Lord is always there no matter how hard times get. He will bring you through whatever you are facing but it will be in His time. You have to ask him into your heart and then leave everything else to Him to work out. Some day in the future you will begin to see that it all comes together and makes sense to you why you have to go through trials and tribulations.
I will pray for you and keep us updated ok?
Much love to you.
Wendy
 
Angel's Love said:
Hi, I'm new to these forums and to be honest do not wish to give my real name or anything but everyone seems to call me angel sooo... To be honest, I joined these forums because Im looking for purpose and direction in my life right now. I have neither. As a matter of fact, recently Ive done some things that are not considered to be "good things" in the eyes of the Lord. Actually a lot of things... But Ive lost all of my faith, my morality, myself, everything. I dont know who I am or what I want out of life and nowadays it seems I just stay depressed and am always looking for a reason to consider myself a good person. Ive tried suicide and that didnt work out, and to be honest ive been reading a lot of angel stories online and now that I look back it seems there was an angel watching over me a LOT. Why? Does God really exist? Why am I here? I used to be certain without question in my faith and now I'm just completely stumpped about everything. I also suffer from depression and anxiety issues that dont come on occasionally but that are with me all the time. Something about something being imbalanced.

I also just got out of a bad relationship and the person I was with was an alcholic and abusive phisically as well as mentaly. That being said I HAVE NEVER HIT A WOMAN NO MATTER THE CIRCUMSTANCES!! I gave her everything and she tossed it aside. Does true love even exist. Im 24 and just recently broke my virginity. I thought I was in love and she was a different person when I first met her. I used to consider myself a good person but I dont even think of myself like that anymore. To be honest the relationship I had was an affair until she got divorced. I refuse to explain any further just incase this is ever found but... Im a horrible person and it does me no good to breath anymore I feel. Im in such a bad place right now and Ive lost my faith so long ago I cant even remember a shred of time when I picked up a bible. I have no purpose, no direction, no faith, Im a sinking boat floating in my own misery.

That all being said there is no reason for a normal person to be this miserable in my position right now. I have a great job, few but loyal friends, a great family my health, well, most of it, a vehicle. I mean, what is going on in my life? I can think of more than 1 situation to be honest where I might have even been dead but something stopped it and I feel that might have even been an angel. But why are they wasting time with me? Shouldnt they be out helping good people? Im so lost right now I dont even know where to begin everything. I feel empty and alone.
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Draw to Jesus, call upon his name and recieve forgivness Brother,

I have no purpose, no direction, no faith, Im a sinking boat floating in my own misery.

It is impposible for the boot to sink becouse Jesus is spleeping in the boat.

Mark 4:39
He (Jesus) got up, rebuked the wind and said to the waves, "Quiet! Be still!" Then the wind died down and it was completely calm.

feel free to send private message if you feel like talking with some one.


blessings in Christ Jesus ....

In prayers for you ............abigya
 
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Hi there,

It may easily have been an angel protecting you and watching over you. That's the love of GOD for you. Also, its no coincidence at all that you found this website. Why do I say this? Because of all the websites you could be browsing, all the worldly or even Christian sites for counseling you could have been browsing, you came here. This site I can tell you has helped many hurting people return to Christ. The Holy Spirit is behind all the works here.

There is no broken man that GOD cannot fix. Remember, Jesus rose from the dead. If He can do that, He sure can fix broken men. There is no sin of yours GOD will not forgive for a man who truly repents are you trying to do.

Don't be afraid to pray again. He never left you, was and is next to you.

[quoteit]Hebrews 13:4-6 (English Standard Version) 4 Let marriage be held in honor among all, and let the marriage bed be undefiled, for God will judge the sexually immoral and adulterous. 5Keep your life free from love of money, and be content with what you have, for he has said, "I will never leave you nor forsake you." 6So we can confidently say,

"The Lord is my helper;
I will not fear;
what can man do to me?"
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Now, if you want the icing on the cake of GOD's forgiveness for those who backslide, read this.

http://www.talkjesus.com/parables-jesus/26217-prodigal-son.html
http://www.talkjesus.com/daily-devotionals/14967-prodigal-sons-forgiving-fathers.html
http://www.talkjesus.com/daily-devotionals/23619-lessons-prodigal-son.html
 
I was in despair once, and the lord gave me a word, from his word

Read Psalms 107, and see the great love of God, even in miserable circumstances.

God bless, and have faith in the savior of men...
 
blessings !


well come to talkjesus.God bless you

This is my commandment, That ye love one another, as I have loved you. 13 Greater love hath no man than this, that a man lay down his life for his friends. John 15:12–13


love you in christ:handshake:
sunil
 
Thank you everyone for your responses.. It does mean a lot to see so many people care abou t me. I have done so much wrong though, are you sure God will forgive me? I mean, maybe God will no longer find me worthy. Thank you for your prayers, I would like to start believing again. Everytime I read those angel stories I feel like there must be someone watching over us. God is even taking care of me now. I am a good person I feel but have made some poor choices. I am wondering if God can forgive me. Affairs, theft, etc.... I will try though and see if he will forgive me.
 
There are so many in the Bible who did things that were sin and God forgave them. David...Bathsheba....David a man after God's own heart! Not because he sinned, BUT because he asked for forgiveness and repented, turning from the sin.

Jesus told the prostitute "Go and sin no more".

Just some examples. He LOVES you and WON'T turn you away.

Father God,

I pray for this brother. I ask that you would draw him close to you. I ask that you would show him to You. In Jesus' name, I declare freedom from satan's hold! Break those chains, Jesus! Amen
 
Thank you so much! :) I have prayed and repented my sins and I felt a sudden light feeling but then it went away in the middle of the prayer.. Why? I also asked God what he would have me do, what his will was, and I got no answer. I suppose nothing yet.

Giggles4God said:
There are so many in the Bible who did things that were sin and God forgave them. David...Bathsheba....David a man after God's own heart! Not because he sinned, BUT because he asked for forgiveness and repented, turning from the sin.

Jesus told the prostitute "Go and sin no more".

Just some examples. He LOVES you and WON'T turn you away.

Father God,

I pray for this brother. I ask that you would draw him close to you. I ask that you would show him to You. In Jesus' name, I declare freedom from satan's hold! Break those chains, Jesus! Amen
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Only God know what is in our hearts and when and where and what we are to do that is His will. He will let you know.

Sometimes, we must wait..."They that wait upon the Lord will renew their strength..." Isaiah 40:31

Sometimes, we must listen up...to hear what He is saying.

Sometimes, we must be still..."Be still and know that I am God"

I can't tell you what God is thinking...I know though that He has a purpose and a will for your life.

Read the Bible. Spend time with Him. Pray. Fellowship with other believers.

"Draw near to God and He will draw near to you." James 4:8
 
Life is for you

Man I'm new here though I've been before. I know you've done some stuff that you aren't proud of. It hasn't pleased the lord either. So what are you going to do? Because it's all up to you. You are showing that you repent what you've done. Just do that! But repent means a lot. Are you willing to give yourself to Jesus? It's a big ask but he is in the business of forgiving sinners if they really want peace.
Angel's Love said:
Hi, I'm new to these forums and to be honest do not wish to give my real name or anything but everyone seems to call me angel sooo... To be honest, I joined these forums because Im looking for purpose and direction in my life right now. I have neither. As a matter of fact, recently Ive done some things that are not considered to be "good things" in the eyes of the Lord. Actually a lot of things... But Ive lost all of my faith, my morality, myself, everything. I dont know who I am or what I want out of life and nowadays it seems I just stay depressed and am always looking for a reason to consider myself a good person. Ive tried suicide and that didnt work out, and to be honest ive been reading a lot of angel stories online and now that I look back it seems there was an angel watching over me a LOT. Why? Does God really exist? Why am I here? I used to be certain without question in my faith and now I'm just completely stumpped about everything. I also suffer from depression and anxiety issues that dont come on occasionally but that are with me all the time. Something about something being imbalanced.

I also just got out of a bad relationship and the person I was with was an alcholic and abusive phisically as well as mentaly. That being said I HAVE NEVER HIT A WOMAN NO MATTER THE CIRCUMSTANCES!! I gave her everything and she tossed it aside. Does true love even exist. Im 24 and just recently broke my virginity. I thought I was in love and she was a different person when I first met her. I used to consider myself a good person but I dont even think of myself like that anymore. To be honest the relationship I had was an affair until she got divorced. I refuse to explain any further just incase this is ever found but... Im a horrible person and it does me no good to breath anymore I feel. Im in such a bad place right now and Ive lost my faith so long ago I cant even remember a shred of time when I picked up a bible. I have no purpose, no direction, no faith, Im a sinking boat floating in my own misery.

That all being said there is no reason for a normal person to be this miserable in my position right now. I have a great job, few but loyal friends, a great family my health, well, most of it, a vehicle. I mean, what is going on in my life? I can think of more than 1 situation to be honest where I might have even been dead but something stopped it and I feel that might have even been an angel. But why are they wasting time with me? Shouldnt they be out helping good people? Im so lost right now I dont even know where to begin everything. I feel empty and alone.
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Angels love.I do so intensely appriciate your honesty I wish more people would be like this.
I personaly suffer from bouts of schizophrenia wether imagined or real I dont know,but one thing I do know that God in His amazing grace found me and plucked me out of the clenches of all those mad doctors who had plans to fry the last of my brain cells.
Yeah I lived a wild life in my past but God always had a plan to recue my battered soul.
Im what I call damaged goods,and I seem to feel like a giant failure most of the time,but with my little faith I pray daily for God to use what life I have left.

I present my self daily a living sacrifice, mangled and mutalated I feel sometimes but never the less I boldly come before Him and put my all on the altar.

Hebrews 4:16

Let us therefore come boldly unto the throne of grace,that we may obtain mercy,and find grace to help in time of need.

May all joy be restored back to you,and may you find complete satisfaction in Christ alone by faith in Him alone.

and may He use your life for His glory.Amen!!!!!
 
"I used to be certain without question in my faith and now I'm just completely stumpped about everything." (from original thread)

Share with us a little of your original testimony. How you developed your faith. Good for you to reflect and helpful for those who want to encourage you.

Just a note from a caring brother in Christ.
 
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