First, I know this is all relative. What I find meaning in is RELATIVE to my experiences.
I am 26 and have seen 11, 111, 11:11, 11111, etc. on and off for years at a time since I was 12. I would later realize these "11" periods were pivotal junctures in my life-- where I must resist temptation, but cannot. As is the case right now, addiction (or rather, a medley of addictions/habits that work together) is/are slowly draining and spiraling my life into vastation.
Despite what many feel is true, I cannot help but believe "11" to be an evil number; certainly not a number associated with angels or God, but quite the opposite. Things seemed to come to a crescendo a couple of years ago when I had a terrible dream about my life crashing down in the worst possible way-- "the end of my life" for all intensive purposes. I glanced up in my dream and saw the time was 7:11 (morning) on the microwave clock.
OK. So what?
Well, 7:11/711 was/is not a time or number that I see or notice often, or really ever. I needed to find out what in the Hell this number was trying to tell me/predict/forsee?? Turns out, Hell was only half of it.
I have begun to makes sense of everything with the help of numerology (
End Times Prophecy, Current Events, Christian Symbols, Numerology - RidingTheBeast.com and Biblical numeric interpretation (
Bible Meanings Home *6:11pm as I glance at my phone*. Read the excerpts on the numbers before you skip to my 'conclusion' (for lack of better words).
Here goes.
**Number, 7**
Number 7, Biblical
Summary of the Spiritual Sense [of 7]
The subject here first presented is the conjunction of the spiritual heaven with the celestial; and also, generally, the chapter treats of the acknowledgement, on the part of the spiritual man, that he receives all the good things of charity and faith and doctrine from the Lord through the celestial heavens, vers. 1-8.
But those who constitute the spiritual heaven cannot perform the functions of the ultimate heaven, their use being to minister to and support with all their power the celestial heaven, besides which they acknowledge the Lord in genuine spiritual worship; every society, indeed, and each individual, according to his state, vers. 9-11.
The specific acknowledgement and worship of societies and individuals is described, vers. 12-88.
Revelation, internal and external, is always the consequence of genuine acknowledgement and worship, ver. 89.
According to this interpretation:
7= Holy, Devine, Heaven
Then there's...
**NUMBER: 11**
Numbers Chapter 11
Summary of the Spiritual Sense [of 11]
A state of temptation is described, causing aversion from the Lord, and the predominance of lusts in the external man; but intercession is made and deliverance follows, vers. 1-3.
Another state of temptation succeeds, in which there is a desire, externally, to return into the delights of the merely natural man, and a want of confidence in the Lord internally, resulting in a state of despair, vers. 4-6, and 10-15.
The good of truth is described, with which, in the temptation, the man of the church is disgusted, vers. 7-9.
Concerning the orderly arrangement of truths by the Lord, revelation, the conjunction of truth with good, and the appropriation of good, vers. 16-18.
But the corrupted man desires only natural delights; while the truly spiritual man is in doubt and distress, and consequently receives consolation, vers. 19-23.
And now, therefore, a new arrangement of truths actually occurs, and consequently revelation, and the power to teach, vers. 24-30.
Besides which, there is an abundant supply of natural delight, which, with the true man of the church, is good legitimately appropriated; but the wicked pervert this good by application to lusts, and, therefore, suffer the destruction of remains, and total vastation. But the good experience a change of state, coming into peace and tranquillity in externals, vers. 31-35.
According, once again, to the Biblical Book of Numbers: 11 = Evil, Temptation/Sin, Hell ... AND/OR ... "Peace & Tranquility" for those who change their ways.
Why is this problem?
Why can't I simply overcome my problems and rid myself of the constant 11's that seem to encourage me in times of weakness or remind me of my shortcomings in times of strength? I have identified the problems, found meaning in the signs and messages and essentially decoded my entire situation.
So WHY is it so hard for me to change?
I obviously know myself, and I know myself real well. I know "why". My family and friends would understand "why".
That being said, I have always had a good heart, even when I didn't know it. It is one of those built-in attributes, fundamental to ones character; permanent-- deep within the foundation. Teachers, bosses, even peers have told me this my whole life, and it usually comes from someone I never expect... Usually, due to things that I did or said to them without thinking.
To clarify: I rarely volunteer for community service unless it is part of a corporate function. I don't spend my vacations on mission trips to Haiti. I just treat people the way I would want to be treated if I were in their shoes, sometimes, subconsciously going to great lengths whether that means holding doors for too many people, or exhibiting calmness under pressure. I have found myself in a number of unlikely "bad-luck" scenarios, where chaos, panic and public disarray take hold. One of my greatest strengths, yet though rarely exhibited in daily life, will forever be defined by one of these moments. However, most days, I'll just create awkward situations by holding the door for 29 people before entering.
I digress.
Numerology + numerical Biblical Book of Numbers can explain it better than I would with my own words.
(**Again, this is via:
End Times Prophecy, Current Events, Christian Symbols, Numerology - RidingTheBeast.com --not a satanic cult-- read the FAQ you'll understand where he got the name)
My name (alias) (my name has more letters):
"Thomas Edward Brady"
...in the English Gematria System **The English alphabet doesn't normally carry numeric values but this practice has been carried into English using numbering systems similar to the ancient languages. This has become known as English Gematria**
EQUALS 996 (2+5+50+10+1+40+9+50+10+60+100+5+70+8+70+1+70+1+70+9+5+200+90+60), which reduces to 24, which reduces to 6.
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Numbers Chapter 6
Summary of the Spiritual Sense
The character of the celestial man is described, namely, that he is unwilling to investigate spiritual or celestial truths during his-regeneration, because he is distinguished from the man of the Spiritual Church, and cannot appropriate truths for the sake of being led into good; and in him ultimate truths are not separated from good, he is in good and truth conjoined, and he acts from good by truth, through the immediate perception of truth, vers. 1-5.
Concerning the regeneration of the celestial man, his purification from evil, his devotion to the Lord, the reconciliation of his external man with his internal, and the state of innocence he acquires, vers. 6-12.
Concerning the state of the celestial man made perfect by regeneration, vers. 13-21.
And, lastly, concerning the conjunction of the celestial with the spiritual heavens, vers. 22-27.
7 = Devine, Holy
11 = Evil, Temptation/Sin, Hell
7:11 = GOD and good coming between Satan, evil and temptation ---- Though it was only a dream, God is putting Himself in my corner. I need to figure out how not to lose the fight.