Technology and the church

[Brother-Paul]

Sounds like you had a journey bro. but it's made you who you are, makes you valuable when you meet someone in pain, because they know you understand. It's God's training for many a Christian. Bless you.

It was an experience brother, there is so much not included but it gives a picture.

Some say TV and films don't affect a child's mind, they sure do. So what does all the evil in video games do. We used to do what we saw in the westerns, you will remember well, Bonanza, Raw Hide, and hundreds more. But what I found interesting when I look back was seeing a film with guys rolling in fire, we copied it!

Then there is another situation when much younger, I was always having nightmares, falling out of bed and getting trapped beneath it them screaming as I woke up, one time I had fallen out of bed and ended up under a tall boy, a wardrobe with about 6" underneath, scream I did, they had to get neighbours in to help get me out. Then there was a situation around 1953-54, I was in the same bedroom as my dad, on my own, he would through his clothes on the floor. I was in the room, I was so often send to it, I hated the room, one night it was dusk, my bed was in a corner, I sat up with my back to both walls, I stared at his socks on the floor, they were screwed up, they suddenly they came to life, monsters I had never seen before and they were coming to get me, I screamed the house down. There was no TV's in those days, just a wireless downstairs, no Spielberg movies or the like, their were no believers in the family to say they were demons, I had never heard the term, I was only 5-6 years old at the time.

As I look back now, I was 4-5 years old when trapped under the tall wardrobe, yet at 17 years old I was inside a concrete incinerator tunnel when the whole lot came in, crushing me inside, only my boot souls were showing. Hence part of my issues today with lack of mobility and pain.

It's a strange life, so much evil, so much fear, so much sin. That vicar you know I hated his guts, it bred inside me, screwed me up, I got to not just hate him, ate all he stood for, even ate God. Maybe, maybe that was just what God wanted to heal me, I would not let anyone try tell me about Jesus, God or anything 'religious'. I was in control of my life, I was the only one I could trust, my wife yes but in percentage terms, she was the only person to ever love me. Yet I was brought to nothing, lost everything, to bring me to my knees, to release all those years of held back tears, boy didn't I cry and it took very little to start it. I was being set free.

As you say my friend, what we experience helps make us the people we are today, things we have experienced can help others. Isn't God amazing brother.

If I thought that part of my life was hard, I was in for another shock. Never say becoming a Christian is easy, I changed almost overnight, next battle was harder for sure, my wife said I wasn't the man she married, I was so close to losing her and the kids, it was hell. I couldn't have my Bible on show in the house, I had to stop going to the place of worship, it was that bad. The Spiritual battle was harder than anything I had previously experienced, because my heart had changed, I had feelings for others, not myself! Three and a half years of it, but God always provides a way, when I stopped going to the place of worship God provided another way for fellowship, out of the blue, on a property visit at work I met a retired Pentecostal minister, he thought me what I know now, he thought me how to be protected by the blood of Christ, how to deal with a spiritual battle. Thank you Lord for Gilbert.

God is amazing my friend, but I know I do not need to tell you. It is a pleasure to know you and be brothers in Christ.

PTL \o/

Shalom

 

[Brother-Paul]

I remember when i change too, what my wife said to me "you are not the man i married' because i change. i became better man, i thought. "then she told a marriage counselor "i was to smart. I just came out from the world, had no demands on her. I just told her, "to hold on to my coat tail and I would carry us both". Everyone thought i was a mean man at church. But i wasn't, i just was bold. i clean the house, cooked, iron kids clothes, volunteered in their school, a good job, went back to college. Everything i did she fought me on it. Maybe it was after salvation i confess to unfaithfulness. She never knew I had done such a thing. And she hated me for it. I told her how it had broken me. Now before that we were not getting on well, Plans before we got married, and goals I thought we agreed upon, but she had other plans with my money. She was not unfaithful, in the end i was. I became cold, she did not., meaning she walked out once and left me with the kids, And I change the Locks. And when she wanted to come back home. I would not let her. It hurt her bad, Later I heard her cry out: "these people have made me loose my husband: i didn't know then, it was the women at church that told her to treat me in such a negative matter. My conscious trouble me a many nights hearing her cries. There were many of lies told on me, during that era. The courts gave me custody of my little girl and boy, The courts and church was not in favor of me. I never said nothing against her. i kept my mouth shut. And when The courts final assessments, and asking her questions and not me.

They ask her who cooked most of the meals. she replied Her husband did.

They ask her who took them to the doctor mostly: she replied her husband.

They ask her who went to parents and teachers meetings, she replied her husband

They ask her who clean their rooms and wash their clothes, she replied her husband

Then they ask her who did they call out in the middle of the night. she replied her husband

Then she looked at me from across the court officers table, and cried out, that i had took her children: and leap across the table and started beating me across the face and head. The lady court officer started screaming, and i just sit there and let her beat me. County Sheriff's pile in the room. to get her off me. The court officers ask me how i could just sit there and take that kind of beating, bleeding. They held her, and took me and my two children out the court back door. then they let her go. i never told anyone except my parents. Most of my friends and the church never knew what happen but i was label a mean man who did not like women
i finish college at night with the kids in the back class room. She was never unfaithful, but i was not the man she married. People used to talk about how pretty she was. When she got mad at me , she would beat me. I didn't care 'I was "Full Contact Karate, Judo, & Jujitsu" Martial Artist." not sports "Self-denfense".

I cried a many of nights laying beside her, and ask her why, and she would say; "i don't know why". She would dream of me kissing another women, and knock me beside the head in the middle of the night.. "I finally understood the problem after a few years had pass what the problem was" So do not even try to Speculate.

I have been a lot of places between "there & then". I understand she still keeps my picture on the "Mantel". I have not seen her face of spoken to her n almost better than 30 years, And that is all I am going to say. about my Marital Life.

Most Christians do not know who we really are. and the biggest enemies we have are located in the" institutionalize church". AND many do not know the place we are in. AND many claim they believe the Bible but they don't., you can tell by the words that come out of their mouths and actions, The Pelagian, and Armenian thought patterns, has cause a many of true christians to suffer un-awarded suffering. and have lead many into such practices. They have no idea "why God says: "Come out from among them" "and that you are a different creature" they just think it is just a word that the bible is using. You have no idea what that other creature is! And scripture makes it know to us clearly. But some christians think that God is Like them.

Just having a serious talk, that is all. 'And there is one that judges me" Have you ever wondered why "GOD would send a creature to "a state of Torment" and then the Lake of Fire? just because that creature does not believe that Jesus is the Son of God. "The Devils believe that Jesus is the Son of God" that believeth, does not save them. I am not talking about the unsaved. I am talking about you "True Child of God" you are different from the "FOUNDATIONS OF THE WORLD"! That knowledge has a blend of Joy and pain, grief and sorrow. in which we will feel the full effect and God will have to wash away our tears. Have your ever felt it in the heart of "DAVID" and "Aaron".

(Psalms 34).
17The LORD hears those who cry out,
and he delivers them from all their distress.
18The LORD is close to the brokenhearted,
and he delivers those whose spirit has been crushed.

It seems like, i have been crushed so many times i cannot count.
And yes I do fear, even though I know HE will bring me out!
And I know it is all for my good.
I know that shaping comes in brokenness. the work that is done in that new creature that is within me.
And sometimes I fall into tears, when i just think about it. It is such a precious love that only a true child of God can know. It is the hand of God on me, in the inside molding me into HIs image.

Have you ever wanted a non-christian to feel the hand of God shaping you in the inside. I am not talking about the "Joy" of the Holy Spirit". But the shaping hand and molding hand of God though the pain we endure. amazing.

just felt like talking, thanks to "Brother-Paul" who prime that pump. as I read a that part of his "Salvation Journey' He shared with us.

And I thank you my Brother in Christ.

PTL brother.

In all these things we are more than conquerors through Him who loved us.

I was always an introvert, never shared nothing with anyone, my wife and myself had been married twenty years before she found out of my past. After coming to Christ, some time later, when seeing my doctor he asked if I had considered counselling, I said I had but said I felt it had to be a Christian counsellor. He said wait a minute I just after go see some, he came back with Margaret a Christian counsellor. I was counselled for eight and half months, that was the first time I had shared the things I shared with anyone. We must share, we must have release, we are set free to be free indeed.

For I am persuaded that neither death nor life, nor angels nor principalities nor powers, nor things present nor things to come,
nor height nor depth, nor any other created thing, shall be able to separate us from the love of God which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

In Jesus Name we rejoice and give thanks. Amen

Thank you for sharing brother. Bless you