Wellll
It all started when I was first called(to repentance).
Not sure how it happens for others, but I came to a place where I couldn’t take it anymore. It’s almost like my life flashed before me, and was so heavy that I gave up. Used, abused in every way you can be. Trapped, not able to move for many reasons. Became a manipulater. A liar. A cheater. A thief. By the time I grew up. Eventually ironed all that out, but couldn’t take the ugly of life anymore. The control of others anymore, and I broke.
“I don’t know how to do this anymore” “God (any God!) help me”…or I’m out!!!
On my knees, Razor blade in hand, within 15 min of giving my ultimatum, a knock came upon my front door; A book called experiencing God.
About 2 weeks later, a flyer came in my mailbox, for a “Revelation” Bible study. Wasn’t even my address. So I went. Later to find out it was the SDA. And only 50 flyer went out in the whole City! (Really cool History lesson!)- this is where I learned of the history of the Catholic Church- and the changing of the times…and such stuff)
About 6weeks in, they starting calling for baptism. I was certainly drawn too it, but didn’t want to find myself becoming an SDA. As I didn’t quite agree with everything. Something was holding me back.
Studied with them for a while, but my questions became overwhelming for them, and they eventually faded away (from coming over)
Then I get invited to a non-denominational church. Really nice; went a few times. Tried speaking with one of the pastors, but he shut down With all my questions. I eventually stopped going as a football player came through, gave his testimony, and it turned into throwing NFL signed memorabilia into the crowd.
Then I was invited to a Pentecostal
Church. Went a few times, but when they started speaking “in tongues”, it took everything in me, in all honesty, not to bust out laughing….they were making fools of themselves.
Then the JW came knocking on my door. But then they stop coming too… Actually, the Secretary at my daughters school was a JW. And offered to study with me. That lasted about 3weeks, and they too stopped coming.
Then I was invited to a Baptist Church. So much talk of hellfire and sinners that i couldn’t take it anymore. So I stopped going.
Then the Mormons came knocking. Studied with them for about 2months, and then they stopped coming.
In the process of all of this, I got laughed at, told I would have to go into the childrens room so my daughter wouldn’t interrupt the pastor, ridiculed for all my questions, and Shut down(conversation).
So I went straight to the Scriptures myself. Started in Matt-John for the first 2-3 years. Then went on to the letters the next 2-3 years, then on to revelation. In the process of this, I got this “thirst” for Everything Jesus Christ. If it bore his name, I was reading it. I followed it into Buddism(they have “sutras” of a visit from him), it went into Hinduism(they have temples that bear his name there), Egyptian( from the (g)nostic scriptures,- that were found with the Dead Sea scrolls said to be from the Essenes) and Islam(as he is an esteemed “prophet” within them)
In the process of this, I searched out other branches of Christianity in other parts of the World. Eastern Orthodox, Coptic, Roman orthodox…
So at this point, I’m reaching out to those that call themselves by his name. To reason this out together. With his head. (But we have the mind of Christ!) Like we were asked too
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Not everyone will see it like you do. Just like most won’t see it like I do. We all have our different experiences. Grew up with different “programming”. And view everything through our own “filters”. This is why we were asked to “die” to ourself. It’s like a “reboot”. Or “born again”. And to be “raised” on the righetousness of God(or his principles for living) as this allows you to understand his reasoning, this move accordingly! Or know the will of God!
(Mind of Christ!)
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Off the Top of my head….
The parable of “new wine skins”…
Is the same as a Zen proverb.
“Empty your cup, so it may be filled”;
(Can’t fill an already full cup!)